Getting Back on the Writing Horse

After a long writing break a few weeks back I started a new project. My new book project is about a former Special Forces man, dealing with the emotional loss of his wife and daughter. When the law fails him, he decides to take matters into his own hands. On a mission to clean up society as whole, he now must use his skills to evade the law, and evade the criminal organizations he is targeting.
Now that I have explained the basis of that novel, just a couple of chapters in I have decided to put that one on hold. Not a complete stopping of that novel as I may turn to that one here and there to take breaks from another more important and more emotionally tolling project I have decided to try. This will be attempt number three at beginning this project, which I will explain in further detail below. This just shows how tough this one is for me to write.
I have decided to write my life story in an attempt to put my counselling training to good use and counsel myself through life events that I must deal with. I am not one who likes to talk about anything that might be overly personal in my life, and so I turn to what I AM able to do well: Writing. Writing this all down will be therapeutic, revealing, and I may step on some toes along the way, but I assure you all that I do mean well. This is something that I feel I must do, even at the risk of stepping on toes of people close to me. I do not mean to insult anyone, or try to make anyone feel sorry for me, pity is something I detest. My Dad and Step-Mom are very good parents, who did their best and loved me the only way that they knew how, I do not want anyone to think otherwise. We all make mistakes as parents, I am learning this more and more as a parent myself, so please show them the respect they deserve and do not take this as my having anything against them. I truly am sorry to them if any of this comes as a shock or appears as ungrateful, I again assure them/you all it is not meant to come across that way in any way, shape, or form. I don't feel comfortable talking about my life, so writing it out is the best option. If my family wants to clear things up about any of these situations let me know, and I will edit the section immediately, re-posting it with a note of the edit. Some of what I write will be the first time I have really talked about these things with anyone, but I feel I must.
I will post a disclaimer before posting anything, this may or may not turn into a book, I haven't decided that as of yet. So far it is just my way of dealing with things that need to be addressed. I am going to need support and encouragement to finish this project. I will likely shed some tears and have random bursts of laughter, I am not ashamed to admit this, and most certainly am NOT crazy! I know those close to me may disagree on that last point, but I wouldn't be crazy if I thought I was crazy would I? So maybe I am crazy...most confusing...guess I will just let you all formulate your own opinions on that matter. I hope it elicits the same reactions in everyone who decides to follow these postings. Hopefully I can touch some lives through this and make a difference in someone else. At this point I am not sure if these will be short or long bits, it will depend on where my brain takes my fingers. There may be days or weeks between postings, I apologize for that. I will have to force myself to continue in certain parts as some be very emotional. I am not saying this is going to be a sad story all the way along, far from that. I have had ups and downs, we all have, so enjoy the ups. I will be trying to include humorous tidbits to lighten the mood. I also apologize if I come across as sarcastic in parts, that is just me. I utilize sarcasm to lighten the mood. In life I often will use it to diffuse situations, or take the focus away from myself, as I do not enjoy being the center of attention. I know I was often a class clown, but like many class clowns there was a reason for this. Not sure how long this process/project will take as some parts will be like pulling nails.
I will be posting chapters/parts as they are completed, please note these will begin as rough drafts to be edited later on. I do appreciate comments in support, or even editing suggestions (I know I have friends who are teachers out there), if you don't feel like posting them in comments feel free to Facebook me, or even shoot me an email if you know my email. I will also state here and now copyright laws prevent the copying/distribution of anything posted online without the express permission of the original author (they are considered copyrighted now the moment they are posted). I ask you to respect this and show me some respect in your comments, this is me pouring out my heart and soul to the world, respect that. I don't mind parts being used, but definitely want to know ahead of time, and will want to know how it is being used. Feel free to recommend people to read it, the more people I can help through this process the better. If you want to speak to me about any of this, let me know how to contact you and I will gladly do so.

I really do hope that this can be used as a ministry, as this really is a long winded testimony. Please do not let this prevent you from reading on, I am not preachy, actually wish I was, but sadly that isn't me and I want this to be the true/real me popping its head out for the first time.

Thank you for reading, for the time being, this is Tony Peters signing off.

PS Usually titles come early on and come easy for me, but in this case I draw a blank. I am open to title suggestions!